The Crab Walk

I went on a week long trip to Maine this month. It was so refreshing to visit a land filled with nice pleasant people who couldn't care less about the latest fashions or fads. New York is full of douche bags, and apparently Massachusets is full of assholes. But I digress, I absolutely love the nature in Maine. Climbing mountains has become one of my favorite things to do in the world. Since Buffalo is nothing but flat swampland, I'm going to have to move by the end of the year, lest I shoot myself. Maine doesn't seem to have as many cool places for cheap food, at least not at first glance, but there are some choice restaurants with reasonably priced deliciousness for when I can loose a few dollahs. I think I would be very happy living there or somewhere just like it.
Things I learned in Maine: "Ah yah", "I s'pose", State bird is the chickadee (not the puffin), state flower is the pine cone(?), trailer homes are very popular, Leon Leon Wood Bean seems to clothe the entire state, anything is better with blueberries in it, fiddleheads are a delicassy, there are almost no black people, and everyone has a lobster for a pet.

Cooking

Well I guess it is time to break out my paring knife and practice my knife skills for the next week or two, because starting april 28th, I should be starting a cooking job at the Top of the Falls Restaurant in Niagara Falls. It should be a fun experience for the summer to mid-fall. I need to do something where I am on my feet most of the day instead of sitting at a desk for 10 or more hours working overtime every day, and staring at a computer screen that gives me crippling migraines. This will be much better for my health, and will also be fun! All my years of watching food network will probably pay off a little bit. Alton Brown is a good teacher. Now to make myself some crepes with an apricot cream cheese filling (or possibly ricotta).

Brains

I often wonder if existence is easier for people who don't have chronic head and brain problems. I also often wonder if when I get depressed if it is because of how my brain problems affect my life, or if it is because there is a problem in my brain and it's chemically making me depressed. Well, in either case, I just ignore it nowadays. I'm on a different level than the rest of the world, and I can accept that, and just be whatever I need to be to survive. I was in the middle of doing some yoga, but I had to take a break, because I couldn't concentrate anymore. I was seeing too many flashy lights in my eyes, and they were too distracting. Something I'm sure happens to everyone when you're just chillin' out in a dark room, you start seeing flashy annoying lights in your eyes, and get sharp pains in your head. I guess it's a good thing it doesn't happen to everyone in the world on a daily basis. Then the world population would be as jaded as I am, and then nothing would get done. Civilization would probably collapse, and we'd all be living in caves underground to escape the sunlight. Now that's an idea...
Perhaps it is just evolution weeding me out. Maybe I'm not cut out for a 21st century ultra UV sunlight world. But that is what sunglasses are for. Just another of humanity's countless tools and inventions designed for beating evolution, kinda like those handicapped parking spots you see at the mall and such. It's a little strange to think about why we try to protect so many endangered species of animals. We try so hard to delay evolution by keeping endangereds from dying off, but that is how those animals arrived on earth in the first place, through the extinction of previous species, they have evolved. Perhaps we just do not want to accept the fleeting nature of the world's beauty. It is the same way with a lot of celebrities and rich folks, the idea that beauty is not special if it is not permanent. This is what repeated cosmetic surgeries are about. As if looking like a thin 20 year old your whole life is proof that you've somehow beaten nature. We don't want to accept the roles of death and extinction and change. We want so hard to believe that we are different from animals and the rest of the planet, and that we are free from all those rules that keep us from staying perfect forever. If life were static it would cease to be life.