I often wonder if existence is easier for people who don't have chronic head and brain problems. I also often wonder if when I get depressed if it is because of how my brain problems affect my life, or if it is because there is a problem in my brain and it's chemically making me depressed. Well, in either case, I just ignore it nowadays. I'm on a different level than the rest of the world, and I can accept that, and just be whatever I need to be to survive. I was in the middle of doing some yoga, but I had to take a break, because I couldn't concentrate anymore. I was seeing too many flashy lights in my eyes, and they were too distracting. Something I'm sure happens to everyone when you're just chillin' out in a dark room, you start seeing flashy annoying lights in your eyes, and get sharp pains in your head. I guess it's a good thing it doesn't happen to everyone in the world on a daily basis. Then the world population would be as jaded as I am, and then nothing would get done. Civilization would probably collapse, and we'd all be living in caves underground to escape the sunlight. Now that's an idea...
Perhaps it is just evolution weeding me out. Maybe I'm not cut out for a 21st century ultra UV sunlight world. But that is what sunglasses are for. Just another of humanity's countless tools and inventions designed for beating evolution, kinda like those handicapped parking spots you see at the mall and such. It's a little strange to think about why we try to protect so many endangered species of animals. We try so hard to delay evolution by keeping endangereds from dying off, but that is how those animals arrived on earth in the first place, through the extinction of previous species, they have evolved. Perhaps we just do not want to accept the fleeting nature of the world's beauty. It is the same way with a lot of celebrities and rich folks, the idea that beauty is not special if it is not permanent. This is what repeated cosmetic surgeries are about. As if looking like a thin 20 year old your whole life is proof that you've somehow beaten nature. We don't want to accept the roles of death and extinction and change. We want so hard to believe that we are different from animals and the rest of the planet, and that we are free from all those rules that keep us from staying perfect forever. If life were static it would cease to be life.
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you can eat quinoa and take manganese supplements to help with your migraine.
here's a shot in the dark, but i read of your migraine complaints, and i am a nice lady here to help. if you haven't tried it already, i suggest lavender tea. lavender is renowned for it's ability to naturally assuage a migraine. they sell a white tea called "lavender dreams" at teavana (in the galleria mall, near the body shop), it's organic loose leaf. good shit. try it out.. it's probably cheaper than any perscription co-pay and better for you too! regardless though, good luck with your brains.
Does the lavender have to be in tea form? Or can you munch on raw leaves? I used to pluck leaves from my garden and rub them between my fingers to smell, but I don't know how edible they are.
well the medicinal aspect of lavender is found in its blossoms which produce an oil.. you can read about it here: http://www.umm.edu/altmed/articles/lavender-000260.htm
i just suggest the tea cause i work in a tea store so that's always the first thing that comes to my mind.. you could probably find some sort of herbal supplement with lavender too.. or just eat lavender blossoms if your daring.
I think my ex girlfriend always stopped me from eating the flowers because she said that it's hallucinogenic, and it's what drug addicts do. Oh wait, that was what she said when I would play with the morning glory flowers. I don't know about lavender flowers.
morning glory seeds take ya on a trip. lavender is the stuff used to fill those little fabric sachets your grandmother puts in her dresser drawers. opposite ends of the spectrum really, yet so easily confused.
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